Sometimes I just need to figure things out and I think that writing them down really helps me. The thing is I'm not exactly sure what I need to figure out. I feel like I am living my life the best that I can, going to school, golfing, working on becoming a better person and living the Gospel. But I don't quite feel myself lately, I want to be but something is just a little off. I am so grateful for the things in my life and everyone that I am loved by and surrounded by. I am a stressful type person so I think way too far into the future, worry about an assignment that isn't due until March, a golf tournament that isn't until the end of April etc. but the thing is I wish I could do everything in my life perfectly... and I can't. I think that is a hard thing to accept and be okay with sometimes. But I do know one thing: When you put the Lord first in your life it will all work out. So that is exactly what I am going to do. The Lord never gives us more than we can handle and trials make us realize how strong we really are. I love the Gospel and the fact that I can be on this earth for a purpose. What an amazing feeling of what we can accomplish...
President Gordon B. Hinckley said:
"Enjoy your work. Be happy. I meet so many people who constantly complain about the burden of their responsibilities. Of course the pressures are great. There is muchh, too much, to do. There are financial burdens to add to all of these pressures, and with all of this we are prone to complain, frequently at home, often in public. Turn your thinking around. The gospel is good news. Man is that he might have joy. Be happy! Let that happiness shine through your faces and speak through your testimonies. You can expect problems. There may be occassional tragedies. But shining through all of this is he plea of the Lord: "Come unto me, all ye that labour and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest." "Take my yoke upon you, and learn of me; for I am meek and lowly of heart; and ye shall find rest unto your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light." (Matthew 11:28-30)
I enjoy these words of Jenkins Lloyd Jones which I clipped from a column in the Desert News some years ago... Said he: "Anyone who imagines that bliss is normal is going to waste a lot of time running around shouting that he's been robbed. Most putts don't drop. Most beef is tough. Most children will grow up to be just people. Most successful marriages require a high degree of mutual toleration. Most jobs are more often dull than otherwise. Life is like an old-time rail journey- delays, sidetracks, smoke, dust, cinders, and jolts, interspersed only occasionally by beautiful vistas and thrilling bursts of speed. The trick is to thank the Lord for letting you have the ride."
I love the opportunity that we have each and every day to be a better person and to be a little bit happier than we were the day before! It's time to just enjoy the ride and love life! I can't wait for tomorrow, its a new day and its going to be great. Yesterday one of my best friends came over and dropped off a 4 page letter and a cd made especially for me. It was a letter to apologize... I literally cried about it for at least an hour. It was one of the sweetest things I have ever read and instantly I only felt feelings of love. That made my day. How sweet are the litte things in life?! I am going to make someone feel the way that my dear friend made me feel with that simple act of service. Put the Lord first and everything will fall into place...
